Although always an opponent of any legislation for Same Sex Marriage, I had often consoled myself that the inevitable legislation would really have little or no effect on me. I do not have children to worry about, and really, I don't care where homosexuals marry and who condones it just will not be cricket, will it!?
So believe me when I say that watching the newsreels inform us that the Same Sex Marriage legislation had been approved by the UK Parliament had an effect on me I had not foreseen it would have. All of a sudden I felt apprehensive for the future. "The future of what?" I self-examined in an attempt to re-assure myself. For our countries, for all our children, and especially for the Christians in our countries! A strange feeling of concern descended on me that surprised even me.
This morning the aftermath not unsurprisingly still took over my time-lines on social networking sites.
"Will the last Christian to leave Britain turn out the lights" was the message from a prominent UK Catholic.
"Christians going on about yesterdays debate....we need more Lions!" was maybe the most disconcerting "Tweet" from the opposite side of the spectrum.
This last message didn't make me laugh. It may be in jest but it reminded me of the apprehension I had felt the evening before. It was chilling in a sense I couldn't quite put my finger on.
Suffice to say it is clear that something is changing and we do not know what the outcome will be. This isn't a debate on independence or economies or currencies or social justice.
This is about what it means to be human, and we might just have got it very badly wrong. My conscience seemed to be trying to tell me we had.